Sunday, March 18, 2007

Regrets

I do not usually talk about regrets, because honestly, I do not have many. I'm a firm beliver that everything I've done in my life has brought me to where I'm suppose to be. But with hearing about my Aunt Val's death one regret keeps popping up and sitting right at my heart. And its not knowing my dad's side of the family. Okay, I know them. I know I have 3 uncles 6 aunts (4 now) and I know I have lots of cousins. Cousins who have grown up and had their own kids, meaning more cousins. Which I'm sorry to say I havent met. My dad's family lives in Minnesota. And as you know I grew up in North Carolina. When I was younger, before we moved to Europe we use to go once a year to visit, usually every summer. And when I was young age didnt really matter. I mean of course my 15 year old cousins didnt want to play with a 8 year old, but the ones who were 10 didnt seem to mind. But once we got shipped to Germany it seems like the memories I have are few and inbetween. The last time I remember going to Minnesota was for Christmas, I cant remember the year. I was over whelmed, by this huge family where everyone got together for Christmas dinner. I mean huge. And that was before all the kids got married. So here I am 30, and the last time I saw my family was Sept 11, 2002. We went to Minnesota for a family reunion. 5 years ago. A lot has changed in five years. Five years ago, was the first time that my dad's family saw me as an adult. And now, my aunt has died and all I can do is wonder how to fix the time that I have now. None of my dad's family has met Scott, or Tanner. I mean I send letters and pictures, but it never seems enough. I hate that I cant go to the funeral. And I knowing that Tanner may be 10 years old before anyone meets them. SO if I ever say I dont have any regrets, call me a liar. Because right now, this one. This BIG one is really lying heavy on me. And it just makes me sad.

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Monday, February 05, 2007

Why Tanner loves Kristi

Because she cooks him dinner and lets him help, all while listening to music. Its great to have an auntie like her!

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Friday, February 02, 2007

We are awful people

So this is the post where all of you will think I'm an awful person. This is Bizkit. We bought him after we got married. He was our baby. Then we found out we were pregnant. He was still our baby for 8 months, and we really tried to keep him in the house after Tanner was born, but he was SO hyper. And thats the nature of his breed. So after trying to train him to stay out of the bassinet, we decided to make him an outside dog. He has a huge yard to run, plenty of shade, and a swimming pool. Scott made sure to go out and play with him everyday. So fast foward to new jobs and school full time....and a lot of miscommunicaton. Some how we forgot to feed him. Yes we are awful, and I dont mean for one or two days, more like 4 or 5. Scott thought I was feeding him and I thought Scott was feeding him. So the night before yesterday I told Scott to bring Bizkit in because it was going to be really cold. Well when he got out there Bizkit could barely walk. He looked awful. He literally looks like a skeleton with fur. Its awful. I really thought he was going to die. We are awful people. How did we forget something like this. Do feed our dog? We brought him in, and cleaned him up and now we're feeding him with a bottle and cooking high fat and protein meals. We've done lots of research and we're trying to nurse him back to health. I've been crying all day. If you asked me this morning if I thought he was going to make, I would say no. I sat in the bathroom with him all morning trying to feed him and get him to drink , and he wouldnt. I got home from work and sat there and rubbed pedilite on his lips trying to get him drink. And guess what he did, then he ate. And now he's walking around. Slowly, but he's walking around. Now as if he would go to the bathroom, I would be so happy. I'm still so scared. And I feel guilty as hell. We dont deserve animals. So I know I'm not one to ask for prayers but if you can say a little one for Bizkit. We love him and he is part of our family.

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Sunday, December 24, 2006

Rest in Peace Great Grandpa Flaugh

We're home, and safe, but we got some bad news. Scott's grandpa died Friday night in his sleep. He was 94. He will be missed.

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